Happy 100

Huh?

This is post number 100. It really only matters to me, but I thought I'd share anyway.

I'm doing my very best today. It's hard. I want nothing more than to cry and yell and beg for something different.

In reality, what I'm doing is reassuring my very dear friend that this is all God's plan. It will turn out well for them as they leave here and move there. It is all happening so very fast.

Today the date has been set.

Two weeks or less.

If I just keep being happy for all the blessing that are going to come their way, it will change inside my heart. Over time, I know that it will, but for today, it leaves tears stinging my eyes, a bitter knot in my stomach and a huge hole in my heart.