God, Gays, Little Kids & My Heart

I'd love to tell you the back story to all this, but thanks to foster care having rules much like the confidentiality in medicine (and with good valid reasons) I can't.

Suffice it to say, The Mr. and I have been having some interesting conversations these days.

I'll give you the briefest of outlines, let you fill in your own blanks and hope you get to thinking about life and what you believe you know and what you believe you believe.

• The Mr. and I, Bible believing Christians
• Personally, I think a sin is a sin, nothing has more weight than anything else in God's eyes. He's told us what to do and what not to do and we each have our sins that we're guilty of and we will each work it out with Him.
• I don't want to be the sort of person who goes around telling other sinners how and where they're wrong or how they ought to get it together. Ought is an ugly word.
• I don't know that I've ever been at the point of condemning homosexuals. They are people who want to be in loving relationships too, just like us. I am not going to tell a person they cannot have their hope for a life long love.
• I want the "solution" for Little One and his sibs to be the one that really is in the best interest of the child.
• Sometimes the solution that is the best isn't the one I'd like or choose. But that alone doesn't make it wrong.
• Sometimes the best solution is not a family that looks like mine, but instead one that keeps all the extended family ties and one that keeps a sib group together.
• Now, even though it seems to go "against" the "right" I find I'm cheering for the "wrong".
• I know what the Bible says. I've read it front to back personally, just so I could really know what it says, but I also know about a living God and a personal relationship with Him. I know that I am not judge and I know that I am charged with the goal of loving everyone, my enemy, my neighbor, the sinner and the righteous.
• I want these two men to have as long and successful, healthy, happy, loving relationship as possible. I want them to be supported by their friends, family and community, especially as they raise these 3 little people that I've come to love dearly over the last 2 years.
• So I wonder, all you smart, perhaps smug, uber-Christians, what is the answer?
• I know I can't go condemning "them", in fact, I find myself praying for them and their family.
• I'm guessing it's a lot easier to be Christian when life is crisp and clean and black and white.
• Wait, I know it was. When I led my life with all the Christian lingo and going through all the motions of doing the right things, it was easy. I was quick to see who and what was right and wrong. Now that life is so complicated and muddy, I can't seem to see the right and wrong line in the sand.
• What I do see is what God whispers in my heart. Trust in me and I will make the path. Do not worry. Do not be afraid. Let those without sin throw the first stone. Pride before the fall. See how I loved you? Now love others as I have shown you. Love your enemy. Love your neighbor.
• I have no answers and often I can't see any farther down my path but the next step.

Now, I admit, this is one of my least readable posts to you all, but on the other hand, there is a lot to process and it's pretty hard to make it clear and have it not be a 1000 page book. Besides, it's a little brain buster, a little Friday afternoon get your mind working and your opinions flowing.

What's your take on all this? I'd really love to know. So go ahead, fill up the comment boxes, let's get a little conversation happening here!